An untold story of my life

April 10, 2022

Heelo ,

It's going to be a thoda sa difficult one for me atleast to write..

I was born in a very rich family background but due to family issues both my parents decided to move to odisha . My mother always says 'My delivery period was the scary period of their life . It wasn't painful but I was diagnosed with High testosterone and gynecomastia. The doctors advised my parents to abort me cause mother and the child was in danger . The nurses and the doctors weren't sure if the child is going to be fine or not. She was admitted from her 6 months of belly . She was advised not to walk or sit .

All those period my father was working really hard to earn few money for the hospital cause all his business crisis and the language barrier.

My mom was taken care by few malayalis nurses . But during those months there were many things happened I won't be mentioning here. Finally after 9 months I was born . But during that time my mom pain got serverve doctor were stilll unsure . My dad came running by the scream of my mom.

Finally I came out as a healthy baby. CHILDHOOD maybe it was fun .

While growing tilll 4 years of age it was smooth. Until after one year when It started showing my Gyaec issues Everyone was scared . CAUSE IT WAS really painful for Amma . Because before that I was extremely healthy who loved to be in a fight and was very active in sports, Loves dancing, Loves singing . One morning when I woke up suddenly my chest was all red my parents got scared It was burning ,very painful .

The same day we booked a train to Vellore for the treatment . My parents had a lot of financial issues back then. They arranged the money from one of my uncle's for my checkup . Finally we reached Vellore after 12-15 brain tests and the testosterone tests the doctors concluded by its not related to brain but I should be in a good care.

Asked to change my board from ICSE to CBSE.

Got my mensuration at the age of 5 . It was a rollercoaster moments for all of us .

I was really upset to leave my friends but gradually it was fine . Visiting to a new school made good friends became the boss of my gang.

Got so many rewards from sports to cultural programs.

But always an average student . Maths teacher always used to scold me for not doing well in her subject.

Then finally 2015 away from my family hostel

New life But bitter experience .

After 5 and half years in a boarding school wasn't good. But yes managed it well . I got low self-esteem cause of my kiit classmates for my colour, Looks . That moment was really difficult for me.

Finally lockdown happened and everything changed started doing MMA got rid of many things . Gained confidence but lost speak haltingly facing tilll now. I personally hate speaking to public ,crowd or any new faces.

I have a speaking phobia . But touchwood I got such sweet friends they are helping me to get rid of it .